Calm

I think the only excuse as to why I've not updated in a while is a good one. She's in her crib as we speak. :-)

Amy went to bed a little early tonight, so I gave her a break from feeding. God did not bless me with the proper anatomy to feed Alyssa, so Amy was kind enough to pump and let me give her a rest. She doesn't do it often, and she refuses to wake me up at night. Yes, I'm trying to break her from that habit.

As I was holding Alyssa on my shoulder, everything got really quiet. I got to listen to things I haven't noticed in a while. It's in these moments you realize how everything you could ever want is right around you.

In the distance, I could hear the train coming through downtown Opelika. I could hear the lumber mill across from the high school stadium. Best of all, I could hear Alyssa's breath in my ear.

God has blessed me with a beautiful and caring wife. He's blessed me with a gorgeous little girl, a life I'm responsible for. He's blessed me with great friends, a great job and more things than I deserve.

I just sat in the nursery tonight, the only light from a soft lamp on Alyssa's night stand. I prayed a lot. I asked forgiveness for the things I've done wrong. I do these things every day, but it just seemed to really take me over tonight.

Tonight, I am at peace. It's a place I've not been in a long time. I've been happy as can be, especially since Alyssa's been with us. But tonight, everything makes me smile.